# I'm a totally different person now **URL:** \ **Category:** General\ **Created:** [August 13, 2018, 11:07pm UTC](https://forum.xojo.com/t/im-a-totally-different-person-now/44801 "2018-08-13T23:07:27Z")\ **Posts on this page:** 4\ **Page:** 1
**Author:** ![Bill\_Dawson](https://forum.xojo.com/letter_avatar_proxy/v4/letter/b/c68b51/32.png) [@Bill\_Dawson](https://forum.xojo.com/u/Bill_Dawson)\ **Post date:** [August 13, 2018, 11:07pm UTC](https://forum.xojo.com/t/im-a-totally-different-person-now/44801/1 "2018-08-13T23:07:27Z")
This is my way of apologizing to all the nice folks around here who I have annoyed, disgusted, infuriated, and generally pissed off. It’s also a brief explanation why that was happening and why any of that is a total impossibility now. I hope you can understand. I have suffered from a mental illness called Borderline Personality Disorder all my life, and the older I got, the worse the symptoms and effects got. In short, I have never ever been who I truly am. Recently, I had the worst experience/attack ever. I was desperate, and my wife drove me to a marijuana dispensary. 10 mins. after the 1st use, ALL the mental/emotional agony completely vanished, and it’s stayed that way for the last 3 days. There are no words to describe the difference. Only now can I see just how completely the illness had taken over. So to keep this brief, I just want to say that all that nasty behavior seems to be a thing of the past. I sincerely hope to mend fences here and everywhere. Please forgive me. ---
**Author:** ![Sam\_Rowlands](https://forum.xojo.com/user_avatar/forum.xojo.com/sam_rowlands/32/265_2.png) [@Sam\_Rowlands](https://forum.xojo.com/u/Sam_Rowlands)\ **Post date:** [August 14, 2018, 3:37am UTC](https://forum.xojo.com/t/im-a-totally-different-person-now/44801/2 "2018-08-14T03:37:30Z")
Dear Bill, Personally I don’t recall that you’ve ever offended me. However I am happy for you that you have found something that works, to make you feel better. I also admire you for stepping up and apologizing to those that you feel you may have offended/upset. All the best. ---
**Author:** ![Bill\_Dawson](https://forum.xojo.com/letter_avatar_proxy/v4/letter/b/c68b51/32.png) [@Bill\_Dawson](https://forum.xojo.com/u/Bill_Dawson)\ **Post date:** [August 14, 2018, 3:58am UTC](https://forum.xojo.com/t/im-a-totally-different-person-now/44801/3 "2018-08-14T03:58:31Z")
Thanks Sam. I appreciate your support. 🙂 ---
**Author:** ![system](https://forum.xojo.com/uploads/default/original/1X/455b4dcc0e61630e9f81940004ddffa49c432a46.png) [@system](https://forum.xojo.com/u/system)\ **Post date:** [October 29, 2020, 7:19pm UTC](https://forum.xojo.com/t/im-a-totally-different-person-now/44801/4 "2020-10-29T19:19:28Z")